Where does the time go?

It feels like it’s been absolutely forever since I’ve posted anything and I guess it kind of has!  I’m not even sure how to catch things up…

In the last month I’ve started dating, got two new tattoos, attended my first “con”, got all the divorce paperwork filed (finally!), planned a trip to my sister’s in Cali for the holidays and one to visit a friend in the bay area next month, planned my first shindig at my house, filled the wood shed, filled the freezer with lamb from a friend, started playing WoW (occasionally)… I guess that’s the gist of it.  It’s been busy and fun.  I’m feeling really settled in, in a good way.  I’m getting used to doing everything for myself and kind of enjoying the satisfaction of it.  I’m slowly getting all the random little projects around the house taken care of.  I’m still seeing a therapist working through post marriage stuff and we are working through some of the “hard” stuff which makes me happy.  I am doing loads of introspection and feel so much more balanced than I have in a long time.  I didn’t entirely realize how much a toxic relationship can drag you down.  I mean it totally makes sense, but I didn’t even realize how toxic it had gotten since clearly I didn’t actually know what was going on.  I occasionally think about Mars and the girls and miss them, but there’s little I can do about that.  I don’t find myself feeling lonely or sad, and even the anger has subsided.  I occasionally feel like I’m not taking *enough* time for myself and my introverted need to recharge   Filling my calendar and being social was something I thought I was going to have to work at since I’m not naturally really outgoing, but between good, thoughful friends and just making “yes” my default answer I’m keeping quite busy.  I’m even venturing out and doing stuff by myself which I think is good for me on many levels.  The more I do the more excited I get to go out and do more things in general.  I’m still trying to figure out when and where to travel in the near term.  I’m thinking probably in the Feb time frame, but I haven’t decided where I want to go and if I want to go alone or with someone.  I’m all kinds of symbolic so I’m really tempted to go back to Paris and “reclaim” the experience since it was part of my honeymoon.  I’d like to rewrite those memories with something of my own, and besides… Paris is just awesome!  I’ve got all the time in the world to figure it out though.  Tonight I’m out to dinner with a girlfriend and then home to try to get the house picked up.  Tomorrow I have therapy after work and yet more tidying up.  Thursday a friend arrives in town to stay through the weekend and Saturday I’m hosting a Pumpkin Party!

This is my new favorite tattoo   It has many meanings to me, but right now I chose to believe it represents the infinite possibilities ahead of me.